This life of a special needs mom is full of what ifs. Early on with our girlie, the what ifs included
- “What if she dies?”
- “What if we can’t care for her?”
- “What if she ends up in the hospital?”
- “What if we can’t stop the seizures?”
- “What if we can’t feed her?”
And now we ask,
- “What if she becomes too big for me to lift?”
- “What if we can’t get others to help us care for her?”
- “What if something happens to her during the night?”
- “What if her brothers can’t help us as they get older?”
- “What happens to her when we die?”
This life with a special needs child is filled with so many fears. Mostly revolving around fear of the future. Typical children grow up, move out, and move on with their lives. Fears are a normal part of this journey with our children who may not be doing that.
But what happens when those fears control me? I become overwhelmed with it, overwhelmed with the enormity of it. My heart becomes absorbed, and it is all I think about.