I underestimate God. It is a mistake that I make too often.
I feel my situations are enormous. The circumstances I face with my daughter with special and medical needs are challenging and scary. The fear and stress feel justified.
My daughter gets distressed when her routine changes, which stresses me. I now dread times when her routine will be changed—for both of us. I know other parents who can relate to that feeling.
My daughter has been hospitalized many times for recurring lung infections. She’s needed high levels of respiratory support—twice she needed a ventilator—for what started out as a simple cold virus. Now, whenever my daughter has a little cough, fear swells up in me. I fear the home interventions won’t be enough to support her breathing, as we fight respiratory symptoms. Surely, anyone in my situation would feel this same way. I try to justify it, but it doesn’t make such fear right.
Recently, I found myself in another battle with fear. I opened up my Bible randomly to Psalm 46 and read:
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling. Selah
There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
Source: Special Needs Parenting- Key Ministry
