When both of my sons began to receive diagnosis after diagnosis, I continually asked God, “Why?”
“Why my child? Why both of my children? Why me? Why don’t you heal them? Why is this special needs parenting thing so hard? Why do you feel so far away?”
After months and months of pleading these questions and God not giving me an answer, I experienced a crisis of faith that scared me. Was God a good God? Was God even real? If He was, surely He’d be answering my questions and my prayers, right?
I went searching through Scripture and found that I wasn’t the only one who asked God “why?”:
– Moses asked, “Why have you dealt ill with your servant?” Numbers 11:11
– David asked, “Oh Lord why do you stand far off? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?” Psalm 10:1
– Habbakuk asked, “Why do you make me look at injustice? Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?” Habbakuk 1:3
– Job asked, “Why have you made me your target?” Job 7:20
– The disciples asked, “Why was this man born blind?” John 9:2
– Jesus on the cross asked God “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” Matthew 27:46
We want to live the blessed “abundant life” (John 10:10b) that Jesus said He was bringing, and we forget that He also told us that “in this world, you will have trouble,” John 16:33. We forget that all our favorite Bible characters had their share of struggles and grief and hard circumstances. Sometimes they experienced struggles for decades before they saw God’s plan come to pass in their life.
Questions and emotions aren’t bad
Source: Special Needs Parenting- Key Ministry
